About christmas... WSID?

I can't believe christmas is really close (like,less than 30 days until christmas!)
 
This year it will be a little different for my friend is living with us now. But christmas days has been really boring for us because since my father left our house cause it seems that now there is no reason to play good family anymore.
At least to me.

So I gave the idea for us to watch movies this years, like this we will have something to do and it won't be that awkward. I hope everyone accepts it.

But I am REALLY excited for a christmas event that is going to happen in a club we go to. If I don't find it too embarassing on the day I want to take a picture with santa 😆

Anyway, christmas has become a bothering event for me, so now I just gotta get through it the best way I can.

I've come back! - About musics and P.O.

Heeeello~

Boy, where the fuck has I been? haha

So, I tried to make an experience of creating another blog to use as a journal. I was liking it but suddenly, (real suddenly) I missed writing about music :(
And 10 minutes after I came here :D

I should've known that a blog without music would have failed. Not that this one is success, but it succeeded in my heart💖

So, Let's talk about music!
I recently decided to finally listen to Block B's sub unit and I loved it. It's BASTARZ. Just the name itself is great.
The first song I heard was Conduct Zero. It's soo good.
It's overflowing with rebellion and wrecklessness. Kinda remind me of Suicide Squad style. Then I started looking for more Block B's songs, and Bastarz as well. I found:

- Unordinary Girl,Block B
- Make it Rain,BASTARZ
- A Few Years Later,Block B
- Selfish and Beautiful Girl,Block B     (MY FAVORITE)

And I intend to keep track on their activities from now on.

Of course, as I just met them,I started to search to know more about the members and they are quite cool. I just think that they really ain't got talent for variety shows😂
Every one of them are excentric on their own way.

If I had to choose, the member I liked the most is P.O. I was impressed when I found he is the maknae cause he is really tall and... sexy ( I feel embarassed as I write this)

But he is soooo cute *u* I love his child way of being.
His voice is also marvelous. Quite remember TOP's voice, and the appearance too...

Ah, and he was the on that made my favorite song from bastarz ("Selfish and Beautiful Girl" as you can see above).

Hmm, the last song I heard of them was "A Few Years Later". It was fun at the first time, while I watched I was liking it already and then, when P.O.'s part came, I swear my heart skipped a beat and then  started beating fast. I was amazed by his part. His voice, the rythm AND the MV... WOW.
Just really perfect.

And then I remembered why I like music more than people: music can make my heart beat fast just as people do, but with a good feeling.

Anyway, I took some pictures from the MV:

See? everything is perfect: The lighting(is blue), Him, on a suit, drinking and suffering. Not that I enjoy seeing him suffering but I relate to that so i feel well.

So that's it. Now I'm officially back and will write here forever. 

byee~ 🐓

九月の音楽 ー Músicas do Mês (Set.)

Tenho escutado muitas músicas novas esse mês, então decidi fazer uma listinha aqui com elas. Estou encontrando bandas japonesas boas pelo youtube, principalmente bandas femininas. É fácil encontrar grupos pop femininos (aos montes) mas bandas, nem tanto. 

Essas foram as músicas:

1. Block B - Toy
2. Agust D - Agust D
3. N (VIXX) - Higher Than Me [cover]
4. SHE IS SUMMER - とびきりのおしゃれして別れ話を
5. SHISHAMO - がたんごとん
6. Kis My Ft2 - You're a Liar♥ （Fujigaya Taisuke 「藤ヶ谷太輔」）
7. CASPA - The End of The World

1~ Essa é a segunda música que eu conheço do Block B. A única que eu conhecia era "HER" que eu acho beem diferente de TOY. 
Minha parte preferida é a do P.O. A voz dele lembra a do TOP do BIG BANG (o rosto tbm eu acho,rs). Ouvi bastante essa música :)
Link do MV 

2~ A primeira vez que eu ouvi essa música fiquei confusa e um pouco assustada. Estou acostumada a ouvir o suga nas músicas do Bangtan e de repente ela solta uma mixtape assim.
Depois do susto, gostei muito da música. Adoro a voz do Suga nela, é bem forte e gosto de músicas que expressam raiva.
Link do MV 

 3~ Essa música me deixa tão calma... :)
A voz do N aqui está realmente de um anjo. Achei que combinou muito com ele, já que ele mesmo diz que gosta de voz doce. Mas a lestra da música é MUITO triste, já que fala de morte e sobre pensar sempre na pessoa que se foi.
Gostaria de ouvir mais músicas desse estilo com o N, já que combina muito com ele.
Link do MV (com tradução) e o MV original 

4~ Na verdade conheci essa música um tempinho atrás, por alguma razão não encontrei mais. Essa música é muito fofinha ^^. A letra não parece ser tão feliz não, mas não encontro nem a letra em japonês dela então tá difícil de saber alguma coisa da letra.
Parece que essa cantora fazia parte de um grupo antes e esse é o álbum de estreia dela como cantora solo. Gostei bastante dessa música, principalmente da voz dela :) Só espero um dia encontrar a letra...
 Link do MV

5~  Literalmente descobri essa banda hoje, mas já acho que pode entar pra lista de melhores do mês. 
Parece que é bem comum bandas femininas (só de meninas) no Japão, e elas são boas mesmo.
Gostei muito do estilo dessa banda. Acho que elas são uma espécie de rock indie (não?). Acho que vale a pena ficar de olho nessa banda e procurar mais músicas delas. 
Link do MV 

6~ Achei essa música com um estilo bem diferente do que o Kisumai faz geralmente, e gostei muito. O pianinho sinistro e o barulho de porta no início e no final da música são as melhores partes. 
Aguardo pacientemente algum anjo da internet fazer a tradução. 

7~ Conheci essa música pelo seriado "Good Morning Call" que toca no final dos episódios.
Mais uma banda feminina que parece ser boa. Consegui ouvir essa música vezes seguidas. O ritmo é muito bom e ela canta bem também. Infelizmente é mais uma música que não encontro a letra nem em japonês. 

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E são essas as músicas. Acho que vou fazer isso sempre, uma lista de músicas do mês. Na escola eu já tinha esse hábito de fazer listas e escrever letras das músicas, era mais pelo tédio mas comecei a gostar de fazer isso.
Eu chegava a baixar 20 músicas por mês ás vezes, mas geralmente eram umas 10, 11. Sempre gostei muito de música por mil razões como me ajudar em fases difícies (que era tantas, mais fácil contar as fáceis) até em apredizagem de um idioma novo. Espero ser assim pra sempre :)

バイバイ~

Mnet [4가지쇼] Ep.7 엔(빅스 N)편 미방송분 공개 - ♬Higher than me

⛽⛽⛽⛽⛽⛽⛽⛽⛽⛽⛽⛽⛽⛽⛽⛽⛽⛽⛽⛽

These last days I found some MVs from bangtan and it really affected me.

You know, i have something for bangtan that I can't really explain. I feel like they are some kind of lost friends of mine from a parallel world. I think this is the best way I could explain it.
I just identify so so much with them in a level i've never felt before with anything. Mostly cause they're real. For example, my favorite MV is "I Need U" cause it shows their friendship and how they're happy when together. But then, it also shows their sadness and problems that are quite deep. 

I know, it's like that for everyone. No one is only happy or only sad. But, I can identify a lot with them cause I'm at their age and mostly I am sad. It seems like I can never get rid of this teenage angst and depression.

But at least they have each other (even though they don't seem to show their weakness to each other). Hmm, I'm not happy and I don't think I'll ever be.
And assuming it makes everything much easier. There is no fake hopes and happy plans. Now my biggest hope is to die as soon as possible. In any day, if I died, I wouldn't be sad. But unfortunately it's impossible to die and not hurt other people.

I was living kinda happy those last months but all the time I felt like I shouldn't, and I wanted to cry to bring it all back but I couldn't. Then someone said something that brought it all. The person wasn't rude or mean, but it hurt. I cried a lot that day and maybe in result of the  time I was repressing those feelings, I hit myself a lot that day. Sometimes I have those urges to get hurt. So I hit myself in the face and punch my arms and head. It's never enough cause I live with my family and if I show up with bruises at dinner time they'll ask questions. They can't help me anyway, so I hide it.

I have no dreams or hopes, but I'll try. The few things I really want is to travel and listen to lots of music. So, in order to live quietly and to be able to do those things, I'll live as longs as I'm alive. But always hoping for the next day is the last day.

Day Out~

Yesterday I went out with my sister and a friend of mine to downtown to see some tourist attractions here in Rio, even though we're not tourists.

Because of the Olympics, some countries opened their "houses" here. I believe they did it to promote their country so people can get interest on going to those countries. Well, it worked with me, haha.

The first one we visited and the one that I liked the most was the House of Colombia. My sister was looking forward for it because she REALLY LOVES COFFEE and they were giving colombian coffee for free :)

 

I asked for the traditional coffee (the black one) and my sister asked for Cappuccino. The baristas were really cute cause they couldn't speak portuguese ^^ 

 

Inside of the "house" was original products from Colombia. There was a lot of coffee and also various types of nuts. 

I think I would like to visit Colombia someday.

After that we found a renewed park. A lot of parks were reformed for the Olympics, the city is much more beautiful, but there's still a lot of things wrong.

This place is perfect for go skating. And even if you fall it's not much shameful because the isn't much people who can see it.

Oh, we ended up finding the olympic pyre. Unfoutunately it was very very crowded in there with TOO MANY people taking selfies.
Honestly, brazilian tourists are the worst.

To The Struggling You (힘들어하는 너에게) - Woo Yerin (우예린) [LYRICS]

Hangul

사람들 붐비는 퇴근버스
머릴 기대고 앉아
눈을 감고 노랠 들으면
하루의 끝이 인사해

싫어하는 사람도
좋아하는 사람도
웃으며 만나야 했던 오늘
수고했다고 나를 다독여
집으로 옮기는 발걸음

나도 모르게 흐르는 눈물
소리없이 삼키던 날처럼
달려가는 사람들 틈에서
걱정만 하진 않을까

잘하고 있어 소중한 사람
넌 예쁜 사람이야

한숨 섞인 조언과
기대 없는 말들로
작은 희망도 웅크리던 날
애써 웃으며 나를 다독여
집으로 옮기는 발걸음

나도 모르게 흐르는 눈물
소리없이 삼키던 날처럼
달려가는 사람들 틈에서
걱정만 하진 않을까

희미해진 내 길 위에서
모두들 고개를 내저어도
잘 할 수 있어 또 나를 다독여
조금만 더 힘을 내줘

잘하고 있어 소중한 사람
넌 예쁜 사람이야

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