Sorry for not writing in here in time. I've been distracted with some stuff... My sister bought the XBOX 360 and i bought the new book of the series " Hereos of Olympus": "The Blodd of Olympus".I thought thta this book would be kinda bad because Rick was losing his talent a bit but it's cool. Though I think he'll never come back to his writing level like he had at Percy Jackson series.

Anyway, i wanted to write about a event that occurred this saturday, 7. It was the birthday of my friend Filipe as it is every year (of course). And he as always invited my sister and me to his "birthday party". I try to escape from his parties EVERY YEAR but i always feel bad because it's his birthday and i really like him, so.

Then, we ended up going again. At the beggining it didn't look so bad. I even had the thought that that could be the less worst year for us, but no. Out of all the pressure to talk, the strange looks, the silence when we came in and my hands shaking when i was eating, i guess the worst part was when they went to play games in the yard. 

A boy that was there, he was clearly the most extrovert of them all because he was the only one who tried to pull us into the game. First he said as if it was obvious that we were going to play. And then he really tried to get just me into the game but Thayane voluteered to play. And even during this game he tried to call me again. FUCKING HELL. It was at the same time gentle and bad. I know he was just beign cool. He IS a cool guy but, don't mess with the introverts buddy. I wished he could just let me rot in my spot until the end like everyone else was doing. 

Conclusion, it was another traumatic party for me. Even my sister is seriously thinking of not going to his "parties" anymore. But now he seemed to decide not to do parties anymore. I realy really love him. I wish we could celebrate his birthday just staying together. Without many new people and pressures. (sigh*)

But this party reminded me something important that i was forgetting: It doesn't matter what people want me to be, i'll just be myself" At the party i started to feel bad about beign so quiet and weird but then i thought it: no one should make me feel this way. Fuck, this is just me. I just freeze when i got to meet new people, and i can even "freak out" if they're teenagers (which his friends were). I just... am not going to his parties ever more.
Sorry Filipe.