Hell Above

It's getting ridiculous already.

Why can't I choose? Its just fucking choose!

It seems like I get a breakdown everytime I try to do it.
When I'm on medicine its possible but when the med is done everything goes back.

Maybe I should think that i gotta do it cause It will be better simply and not because I'm getting old or just because I should.

Whatever.

The worst part is to think that I still have many years left to live.

I'll get so fucked up.

My head is burning my heart is aching.

Breathing failing as usual.

Whatever, fuck all this.