The attemp

I just made orange and carrot juice for me. I always feel good when it feel like I'm looking after myself.
But I cut my hand as I peeled the orange.

The point is, I was just reading an article about accepting failure and how it is essencial to an restart.

That's exactly what I need.

That must be one of the reasons I can't go on so I decided I would try talking about it.

Unfourtunatly I still don't live alone so I'll have to write it here.

I guess in my head, i failed from the start.
From a long time ago I started pressing myself inside of me cause I was ashamed of myself. I tried to live as anything except myself. And I think it went up till now. I must start gathering pieces of myself now and try to create a clear image.

And I feel that I'm really really stupid. For this, I feel ashamed of being hired for job cause I would be good-for-nothing and maybe cause problems to my co workers.

Or maybe not. Sometimes I think that actually I'm pretty capable of having a job and being useful for someone. But never needed.

It's stupid... I should. I should be talking all this.

I'll try.

Bye~