Blood magnet

Hey, what's up?

So, I found a video these days, "maniac". It was directed by Shia Labeouf and the actors are Kid Cudi and Cage.

Well, I loved that video.
I've been realizing that I'm liking these kind of stuff more recently.
Like killing and so...

I don't know what it means. Like, I don't think I'm a bad person. At least not until now. Everyone can change.

Actually instead of killing other people I would like much more to be able to kill myself various times. I would really enjoy it. I would probably have already jumped from buildings at least 5 times and I would like to hurt myself really bad and die from bleeding. And maybe also hang myself. But I'm not sure about that one, since it seems too uncomfortable.

Anyway. I like this killing thing. Whether is me or other people.
For example, someone I admire is Dylann Roof. I really like that boy.

Of course I don't admire what he did but... I don't know. I feel like if I lived close to him I would have a crush on him, and I have crush at no one. NO FUCKING ONE. 

Well. I will do my best to keep it in control. But I don't think I want it to works out.
haha.