Fuck it, give me the pills

こんにちは。

This week I committed the stupidity of not paying attention on the amount of my medicines and my antidepressant ran out so I had to stay without it for some days.

I didn't think it would make a big difference in my humor so fast, but it kinda did.

I got kinda sad and started to be emotionless and irritated at the same time.
So I asked my mother to buy it for me and I'll start taking them again tomorrow.
I guess I'll have to use them for a bit long time, maybe years.

It was bad feeling like that again, but at the same time I could remember how I used to feel.
It's weird to be too happy cause that's not who I am, I guess.

I'll try to control myself better not to be too happy cause it's no good.
And it's not myself, so I shouldn't do it. Being too happy.
There are other things I should focus on.

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 Anyway, I'm happy that the month is coming to an end. There are things I want to buy but without being charged for it next month cause my debt is already impossible.



👆This is a  new song from Blink 182 from their California Deluxe album (that I'm already wishing). It's simply great.

Well, that's all. Let's hope for time to pass unexpectedly fast.

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