I don't have good news. But do I ever?
My mind is still stuck. I thought it wouldn't happen anymore because of the medicine. Maybe it's taking time to start working because of the days that I couldn't take them.
I couldn't study in a long time. I'm wasting a chance, and I can't do this.
My true feelings seem to be buried very deep, and I can't reach them. I don't know what I'm really feeling or what I really think, if I think at all.
Sudden words like "think!", "Grow up!", "don't even think about it", and when it gets painful, "please stop it" has been popping up in my head more than it should.
I can't even find music to console me right anymore.
It's all a giant blank in my head,and in my chest.
I'm trying to watch movies to react to something, but maybe books will work better. All I know is I got to wake myself up soo.
To do real write should help too. Like, to write on paper, a manual work.
It used to make me feel better.
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One of the movies I watched these days was Empire Records, and it is now part of my list of favorite movies. The character I liked the most was Mark, because he respects music and takes it seriously. Also, he is really cute.
And so I'll leave with this empowering gif of him :)
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